12.30.08

so i told her friend whilst signed in as her that she was cheating on me her friend went for it saying dude hes soooooooooo cute does he have any friends then her friend commenced to tell her this morning how jealous she was.

she told her friend it was me.

am i wrong for thinking that a friend that is mutual friendly is a low down scummy bitch for not telling me first and for most??

i am not a cblocker but you dont allow your friends to get hurt you tell them and you dont support the guilty party..

the confession

Validated Again

the confessor

12.29.08

i wished today that she would die
i wished today for blood
i wished today that someone will send him to me
i wished today for harmony
for financial balance and sanity
i wished today i had no tomorrow
i wished today for no more sorrow
i wished like hell for no more pain
i wished there was a pill to take
i wish i could swallow you down
i wish that this was not my fate
intermittent turmoil
frivilous punctuations
foreign matters and independent wealth
none of this pertains to myself
i am the diseased the leppur
i am the used the trash to be tossed aside
i am fighting for breathe and cant wait to lose
i am falling to pieces broken and bruised
i wished like hell that shed take it all
i wished like hell i would fall
i wished today away
i wished my life would fade away


the confession
inward thoughts murder the men without the resolve to push forward, to strive. when you have lost all pride as i have and the support you beg for disappears all you have left is your inner fears, and you are alone with them. alone all the time with the demons of your life and the secrets they hold inside, now there comes a choice amd i know i must decide and i am selfish but i continue to lean towards suicide..
the confessor

12.26.08

Curmudgeon

Christmas Day 10 AM

Shes at my parents house.

I call.

Guerrila Warfare style.

Pops hands her the phone.

Put my kid on I say.

I got to at least tell him I Love Him.

I can hear the anger in her voice but I give no shits.

That is One for me!

The indifference currently residing inside of me is uplifting and heartbreaking at the same time.

I have to keep saying stay the course but what is my course. I am so unaware of how Kelly is feeling and how that effects me is of no concern to her.

The Confession

She Knows about this now

12.24.08

merry christmas i want to die

the c

12.23.08

Lay Offs Suck Ass

Confession
I like it .
The C

12.22.08

So she knows me and she knows how to make me smile, I am so confused.

She loved the present and we traded early she is so silly.

The confession

It saddens me to know that she will never give me children.

The C

12.20.08

i like this...

im so smooth i feel like a lubed up bottle of lube.

i hate this...

NUTSACKS DIPPED IN CHOCOLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the breakdown

he sent she she forgot to tell me i told his and sent her pics he sent she i was going to slam the...

his cock out in their bed asking my girl for head i was ready to retaliate so i sent the pictures you fucking snake...

the confession
i told her i pretended to be she even though i hadnt . i protected her again.

the C-or