Hi

this is an honest open and may be sick twisted perverted, disgusting, sad , happy, abusive, hateful, spiteful, mind blowing, or stagnant.

It is me. It is the goo on the finger that just came out of a festering wound.

I invite all to comment and share.

Fuck your friends fuck your neighbors but alway make love to the one you love.

This is my forum and it is open to the world.

Monday

12.29.08

i wished today that she would die
i wished today for blood
i wished today that someone will send him to me
i wished today for harmony
for financial balance and sanity
i wished today i had no tomorrow
i wished today for no more sorrow
i wished like hell for no more pain
i wished there was a pill to take
i wish i could swallow you down
i wish that this was not my fate
intermittent turmoil
frivilous punctuations
foreign matters and independent wealth
none of this pertains to myself
i am the diseased the leppur
i am the used the trash to be tossed aside
i am fighting for breathe and cant wait to lose
i am falling to pieces broken and bruised
i wished like hell that shed take it all
i wished like hell i would fall
i wished today away
i wished my life would fade away


the confession
inward thoughts murder the men without the resolve to push forward, to strive. when you have lost all pride as i have and the support you beg for disappears all you have left is your inner fears, and you are alone with them. alone all the time with the demons of your life and the secrets they hold inside, now there comes a choice amd i know i must decide and i am selfish but i continue to lean towards suicide..
the confessor