Hi

this is an honest open and may be sick twisted perverted, disgusting, sad , happy, abusive, hateful, spiteful, mind blowing, or stagnant.

It is me. It is the goo on the finger that just came out of a festering wound.

I invite all to comment and share.

Fuck your friends fuck your neighbors but alway make love to the one you love.

This is my forum and it is open to the world.

Thursday

1.29.09

the terrible truth is i am knowingly participating in my own self destruction. i have acknowledged that i am hindering my own progress and grasping the extent of my failures. i was in the cold for over an hour i did everything but break the window and my key would not work. i want this badly and i want it for myself. i want to exclude everyone else and inundate myself as the leader of everything. permission is not required and i have to vie for it. i have to go out head up and shoulders back and beat it out one minute of my life after another. the complication to the fact is that i dont know if leaving was the right thing to do but after having my clothing freeze upon me it seemed like the only option. she gives me doubts.


the confession

i miss the way i felt when i was in control.

the confessor